Self-defeating thoughts are a bitch. Three and a half years ago, I was defeated before ever stepping on the mat. Once I actually stepped on the mat, I was promptly defeated. It was my first tournament at the “intermediate” skill level, and despite the confidence everyone else close to me had in my skill set, I was plagued by doubt.
I went 0-2 that day. Well, I’m competing in the “advanced” division for the first time two days from now. I’ve learned a lot about myself in the past three and a half years. I’ve enjoyed success, and also had my ass handed to me. The most important lesson I learned is to not over-think. Just do. When I’m inside my own head, I hesitate. I make mistakes. I worry about disappointing everyone.
I’m not going to do that Saturday. This post will serve as a forum for me to clear my head. Once I’m on the mat, my mind will be clear and I’ll ‘just do.’