Killer J
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Jan
30

Lifting weights has been a part of me for a long time; half my life actually.  In the past fourteen years,  the weight room has seen my absence on rare occasion.  For instance, I was back in the gym five days after I tore my biceps tendon. I can clinically diagnose myself as an addict.

Now, I have known the value of rest and relaxation for quite some time.  It’s necessary to rebuild muscle and purge the mind.  I just haven’t willingly followed it for shit, until this week.  Mace (a Dragon Eagle/friend) convinced me to lift for four weeks, then take a week off.  It should give my joints and muscles a chance to recover, and yield better results in the long run.  Well, this has been my rest week.  All I have done is jiu jitsu, and I’m going bat shit crazy.

Bat Shit

This isn’t rest and relaxation, it’s exercised induced delirium tremens.  I don’t like it, but it is probably a necessary evil.  When Monday comes, I will reignite my long standing, passionate affair with barbells and squat racks.  I miss you, sweet heart.

Jan
26

Somebody once told me , “If you take care of the little things, the big things take care of themselves.”  Well, during the course of learning sweeps from half guard today, Mark (instructor) pointed out I had my feet placement backwards when holding half guard.  I’ve been doing jiu jitsu for over two years now, and half guard is day one shit!  Mark let me know I’d be able to sweep people a lot easier by simply changing this one “little thing.”

Half guard is a position I end up in a lot, and have trouble doing much from there.  This may be a reason why.  I was trying to take care of the big things, i.e. sweeps and submissions, without having the little things mastered.  Well, now I know.  Thanks Mark!

Jan
24

Katchie bought me an iPod Nano for Christmas, therefore, I resigned myself to joining the club of music dependent morons at the gym.  I’ve always had some contempt for you blissfully unaware, iPod-clad gym goers.  Crazy thoughts cross my mind, like “accidentally” dropping my dumbbells on your foot as you mindlessly prance across my path.  The old ads depicting people jamming out by themselves in front of a bright colored background are about right; nobody else exists in the mind of the iPod wearer!

Don't do this in MY gym!

Well, now I’m one of you.  After just two days of working out while wearing an iPod, I’m hooked.  I tune everybody else out, and better yet, nobody bugs me!  When I have earphones in, weight-room noobs don’t incessantly stop me with a barrage of questions!  Best of all, I can pick the exact song I need to hit a big lift.  Some well timed Lamb of God might as well be an auditory steroid!  I’ll never go back.  Just don’t drop your dumbbell on my foot when I’m mid-riff on my air guitar.

Jan
21

Interminable comfort is bad for you.  When one is perpetually comfortable, it means they aren’t changing.  There are certain parts of my jiu jitsu game that work fairly well for me, and I’ve grown comfortable relying on them.  I then neglect improving my glaring weaknesses.  To “work on” improving my weaknesses elicits anxiety, as it means I’ll inevitably be putting myself in bad situations.  Without embracing the anxiety produced by change, I’ve resigned myself to being comfortable in my stagnation.  This has to change.

Achilles was a bad ass.  He was indestructible, save for his heel.  Wikipedia teaches us Achilles was dipped head first in super water by his mom.  His entire body was submerged in the water, save for the spot on his heel covered by his mother’s hand as she held him during the process.  This awesome warrior was eventually struck down by an arrow to the heel.  How weak is that?

Well, I’m Achilles. Admittedly, I have dozens of weaknesses, get beat by somebody nearly every time I train, and sport a world ranking of 53510.   Other than that, I’m Achilles.  Well, no more.  I will step out of my comfort zone and embrace the anxiety that comes from training the soft areas of my game.

Jan
16

My buddy Ryan posted this video of Richard Dawkins, who contends religious faith is a virus that infects the young.  Dawkins asks, “Isn’t it weird we automatically label a tiny child with its parent’s religion?  We don’t label children with a political party, as they are too young to understand and yet we talk about Catholic kids, Jewish kids, Muslim kids, etc.”  Here are some more points he made:

1) Children are isolated based on their faith, differences are drilled in to them and they embark on different life trajectories.  This creates intolerance. 

2) For Darwinian reasons, a child’s brain is set up to do what it is told by its elders.  There just isn’t time for a child to experiment with warnings like “Don’t go to near the cliff’s edge.”  Any child that applies a scientific, skeptical attitude to that would be dead.  In effect, children are brainwashed by religion.

I agree with some of what he says.  I find it bizarre watching a four year old bear “his testimony” while his mother whispers what to say in his ear.  There is no way this preschooler knows what the word “transgression” means as he clumsily lisps the word through his missing front teeth.  It’s really cute, but not very believable.

I do have some contention with parts of Dawkins documentary, as well as a question maybe you can answer.  I’ll start with my contentions, but be sure to answer my question at the end.  I want to know what you think.

I contend Dawkins assertion that faith is a virus.  Faith is a basic human need, and is utilized by theists and atheists alike to achieve well being.  The course one takes in meeting that need is where people diverge.  Faith, therefore, is not the problem.  Being a dip shit is the problem.

Religion provides a strong value set that leads people towards having convictions about what is right or wrong.  This undoubtedly causes the spineless “everybody’s okay” crowd some consternation, but most people with a backbone have some beliefs that distinguish right from wrong.  In fact, I’d say most religious values unquestionably align with the majority of atheistic value sets.  Some values fall in the gray area, while just a few theistic values are outright rejected by atheists.

Also, the divide between theists and atheists isn’t as vast as Dawkins makes it out to be.  From what I’ve observed, the majority of atheists and theists have huge problems with extremist behavior of religious wackos, such as Islamic terrorists, abortion clinic bombers, and the Westboro Baptist Church that would protest at funerals. These pricks are the exception, not the rule.

Finally, Dawkins points out violent, Old Testament scripture and shows exerpts of fire-and brimstone evangelicals haranguing on about sinful lesbians as proof of the theist’s psychological instability and moral inconsistency.  I say that Dawkins must keep in mind religion is man’s interpretation of God’s commands, and is, therefore, subject to misinterpretation and corruption.  Religion is man passing down God’s word, and since man is imperfect, the original word may be subject to corruption and distortion.  Religious dogma and faith in God can be seen as close cousins, but ultimately separated by the metaphysical boundary.  My point? One can believe in God and not buy in to craziness, even if the craziness is passed off as “God’s word.”

If you managed to get through this long post, I have a question relating to Dawkin’s assertion.  Is it possible for a believer to raise their children according to their theistic values while simultaneously allowing their children to generate their own belief system?

Jan
03

Post your New Years Resolutions on the infamous Killer J site.  It will be here for all to see.  Make sure you keep to your word!  Here’s mine:

1) I won’t force myself to train through injuries or sickness.  Unless I’m feeling at least 85%, I will recuperate.

2) I will get at least two tournament victories at the Intermediate Skill level.

3) I will get Emotional Fitness Rehabilitation (my psychotherapeutic creation) published in an academic journal.

4) Same as last year, I will reserve Friday nights for my beautiful wife.

Your turn, go:

Jan
03

Last year, I made the following resolutions:

1) Compete in as many grappling tournaments as I’m realistically able to do.  I’ll hold myself to a minimum of 3.

2) Create my own LLC and find a place to practice once I get my LCSW in June.

3) Continue to reserve Fridays as a date night with Katchie.  NOTHING comes between me and the ol’ maid on Friday…

Now, for the grades.

1) I competed in three, and had to pull out of three due to injuries.  Since I met my minimum and TRIED to go for more, I give myself an A.

2) I haven’t even taken a step forward to getting my LLC.  I’ve done other cool things that will help me out once I get going on opening my business, but I haven’t done squat to do that.  I get a D.

3) Katchie and I probably hit 90% of our date nights.  We get a definite A.

That gives me an overall GPA of 3.0.  Solid B average for 2009!

Dec
15

My buddy Shaun’s blog resolves Global Warming using a Logic Matrix.  Take five minutes to watch this compelling video, and then tell me how it’s different than the possible Logic Matrix Bush used when invading Iraq.  Spare me the Bush is an idiot/corrupt/coked up etc.  I know, Bush IS an idiot.  Let’s move past that.  On to the the logic presented by Global Warming guy.

Look at my Logic Matrix using the same pattern, but applied to pre-Iraq U.S. policy:

IRAQ has Weapons Mass Destr. USA military occupation YES USA military occupation NO
TRUE (Iraq has a nuclear stash) :) Economic/Human Life cost, but better world due to finding and destroying Saddam’s nukes.  Ultimately a good decision if nukes found. :) Full scale nuclear war, lose Israel, lose balance in Middle East, possible World War, environmental problems due to nukes, everyone dies in a pool of molten Cesium 237.  We’re F.U.B.A.R.D.
FALSE (Iraq has no nukes) Economic/Human Life lost, division within country, loss of global influence and rapport. i.e. our unfortunate, yet current situation. :) Iraq doesn’t end up having nukes, and we never invade.  Great! :)


Dec
10

 

Regular training keeps your skill set sharp.  I am a mental health therapist and jiu jitsu player, which happen to be two endeavors that require regular training for peak performance.  Negative consequences inevitably follow an apathetic approach to training, in that my profession mandates it for licensure, while my passion requires it in order to avoid (or give out) an ass whooping. 

Despite these consquences, it’s incredibly easy to avoid the more monotonous or grueling aspects of jiu jitsu training.  It’s even easier to  put off signing up for expensive, time consuming Continuing Education trainings.  To keep my skill set from acquiring too much rust, I keep this in mind: 

“Don’t give up what you want most, for what you think you want now.”

Dec
04

Mark owns West Side Jiu-Jitsu Academy, and is a smooth, technical, Pedro Sauer brown belt.  He celebrated his 40th birthday by subjecting himself to a grueling, one man tournament against 40 people! His ability is impressive, but more so, I was impressed by his perspective that the number “40″ isn’t a chronological marker, but rather a new standard by which to test himself.

It reminds me of retired, Hall of Fame, Washington Redskins cornerback, Darrell Green.  He retired at 42 years old, and was the only man to run his age in the 40 yard dash.

Darrell refused to let age slow him down on the football field.  Better yet, he used age as a new standard by which to test himself.

So, like Mark and Darrell, I’m going to follow suit.  I turn 30 in a year and a half.  By my 30th birthday, my goal is to be able to eat 30 times my body weight in rib tips. I’m coming for YOU, pig!